Yesterday was my first day at the box when I felt truly discouraged. The WOD yesterday began with warm ups of all different kinds, some of which involved pull-ups. I’m realizing in life now that I have zero arm strength. The coaches, however, were kind and catered to my level. So I did jumping pull-ups and those weren’t awful. But some of these girls looked like they had no muscle either and they were just GOING. How??
Then we started in on practicing our back squats. They had us get in groups of three people who were our height and could generally lift the same as us so that we would have enough equipment for everyone. We had to do 6 rounds of 2 reps. I started off strong on the first four rounds, even as we were adding weight each round. When we got to the fifth and sixth rounds, I dropped the bar straight off my back 2 out of 3 times. The other girls literally were tiny and squatting their max of 165 no problem. I think I topped out around 155 and that’s when I began to drop the bar. The only redeeming part of it was that I was able to come up out of my squat at 160 once. But I definitely used every muscle in my legs and core to get out of that squat. I think I felt so discouraged because no one else dropped the bar in the whole place. No one. It just made me feel so weak, even though, honestly, squatting 155 as a female really isn’t bad. Meanwhile the guy in front of me was squatting his max of 405 like it was no thing. Of course, he was massive. But still. That’s a little intimidating if you’re barely making 160.
At the end of squatting we headed into our MetCon for the day: 7 minutes AMRAP of 7 clean and jerks and 14 lateral hops. Now, I actually seem to be pretty decent at clean and jerks. The lateral hops, though, will wear you OUT if you’re not careful. In seven minutes I got 4 rounds of everything in, barely. I pushed myself really hard at the end to make sure I finished the last set of lateral hops before the timer went off.
While I felt discouraged beforehand, I mostly mentally recovered during the MetCon. I think Tim felt just as discouraged yesterday as I did. His issues are with flexibility, which I can understand. If I hadn’t been a dancer for 6 years I probably wouldn’t be as flexible as I am now. He also is such a perfectionist about getting the movements that it will often wear on him mentally. But he has such a drive and a commitment to get them and understand them that he won’t give up, you can guarantee that which I respect about him. At the end of the day, I knew that I can’t just give up after one or two bad days. You have to just keep going even if you feel like you’ve been sucking. We’re still new at this CrossFit thing so we’re definitely going to suck, especially after having done all of our lifting wrong for years. But we’ll get it and we’ll become more flexible and stronger and after months of doing it we’ll look back and say “Ha! Remember when we thought we sucked and that we’d never get it?” So I’m just going to lifting and doing what I can and I encourage you to do the same.